Thursday, December 15, 2011

Needing to slow down.

   I have been so busy the past couple of months that I have little time for rest or sleep. It has finaly hit me and I can't take much more. My Job is stressful right now and with the stress that Taylor and Skyler are adding its hard to function.
   My Job is stressful because its the holiday season and its my busy season. From Nov to May there is no rest at work. The other thing is that the weekend person Quit. So they hired soemone and She quit after a month. Then I had to work weekends for a while. They couldn't seem to find anyone who would stay. They have someone now. I hope she stays on for a while.
   Skyler is having really bad emotional outburts. He's been crying alot. i don't know what to do. he just drains the energy I have because he is always talking, or he has to be talked to a hundred times. I can't give him a list of things to do. i have to give him one thing make sure he understands it and then wait till he's done. Sometimes its faster if I just do it.
   Taylor is going to start going to therapy. He has always been a handful. He has bad anger outburts. He tries hard to be good and do what is right. but it only last for a week before he's causing problems. Hopefully we get things worked out with him soon.
   I need a vacation. I need to unwind and get things in order at home. My world is slowly coming undone. I need a couple days to clean and Purge. Then a couple days to just relax and take care of myself. But that will never happen.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Phone call from the school

  On Friday I recived a call from the principal of Skylers school saying that he was sent to see her because he was talking back to his teacher. Not like Skyler at all. She didn't even know him after being in the school for two years. He's never been in trouble. So She let me talk to Skyler who was by then crying.
   Skyler told me he was having problems getting his shoes on and getting organized. His teacher told him to move his desk and he responded.... I'm fine right here. Well that set his teacher off and he sent him to tha office. I guess he has been seeing what I have been seeing and had had enough. With Skyler's ADHD and Aspergers he can be a hand full. He is on medication and it works well for his ADHD but there is no magic pill for Aspergers. He is not good with change and when the teacher said move your desk it sent him into a tailspin.
   So we desided to let him stay in the office till he calmed down and then try to send him back to his class. If he couldn't do that I would pick him up. He was able to stay for the day. Which is good. So we talked that night and asked him what was going on. He's not wanting to get out of bed to go to school. Never been a problem before. He told me that he is having problems with a kid in his class making fun of him and tripping and shoving him. Also some problems with kids on the playground.
   So I called the school this morning and they said they would look into it. Its hard with Skyler because that scoial cues everyone has like teasing out of fun or saying its one thing when it clearly is another Skyler doesn't understand. Its either black or white with him. He is a great kid but has little friends because it is hard for him to fit in with other kids. He doesn't know when they are making fun of him and he thinks they are his friends.
   Skyler will always struggle in life with fitting in but as long as he is happy that is all that matters.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Out of waffels

  Let me start be saying today didn't start out good. Skyler is having alot of meltdowns lately. He's not getting out of bed on time he's running late for the bus. But this morning was the Meltdown of all meltdowns so far.
    He has two ego waffels every morining before school. Taylor got up on time and came out to eat breakfast. He ate two waffels and didn't think anything of it. Well skyler finally came out of his room and opened the bigger frezzer and couldn't find any waffels. Taylor ate the last two in the house. Skyler came unglued. Crying screaming and hidding his face in the sweetshirt he was wearing. I told him to eat at school and the answer to that was no. So I drove him to school stopped and got him a donut at the store and gave the kids their lunch money. I forgot to do that last payday.
    So I get to work and I am just so stressed out that I don't want to be there. I have no energy to deal with work today. But I am still at work and counting the hours till I can go home and go to bed. I did buy Waffels to take home. So hopefully it never happens again

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

New phones

  So I got a new phone for christmas from my parents early. I desided that I would give my old phone to Skyler. So I aked him and he seemed really excited about it. I transfered his number over and he paniced. He desided he didn't want my phone he wanted his back. His phone is more familiar to him. He wanted to save his old phone and keep it in his room. I told him I was going to put it up. He got upset and asked me one last time at bed for it.
 This morning he couldn't find the new phone so asked if he could just take the old one. Nice try it doesn't have service. I called the new one and he found it and left for the bus. His friend Arron is moving to north Dakota next month so he's having a hard time with it. He does not do good with change. This is a big change because they have been in the same class for the last three years. I wish Skyler could handle change better.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Let me explain

  I'm sitting in front of the computer and I am trying to deside what to write. I am a mother to Three Handsome, Busy, strongwilled boys and One beautful, happy, full of energy girl. They are my life and I have lost who I am becuase I am so busy with them.
  Taylor is 12 and in the 7th grade. He has ADHD. We have an Appt set up to see the Doctor in Febuary because we are having more and more problems with them every day. We will have a few good days and then something will set him off and he'll turn the house upside down in his wake of his meltdowns. I use to say that my Son Skyler sucked the energy from me but now with the both of them I have nothing left. Taylor has always been like this it is just getting worse and worse. The more I read about how to help Skyler I wonder if the same is wrong with Taylor. So we'll see in Febuary, thats the soonest they can get us in.
  Skyler is 10 and in the 5th grade. He has mild Aspergers and ADHD. He takes alot of my energy. He has to do everything his way. He is very routine which is nice in a way but if it gets messed up he melts down. He has very little friends if any, any more. He says he has friends but I don't thik he really understands. Its doesn't bother him either. He loves playing sports and thinks he is the best player. He would be content if we just let him play viedo games all day. He can't go to bed unless he has music on and has his stuffed bunny Mimzy that he got after watching the last mimzy.
  Eli is 4 and is in Preschool. His Speech is delayed so he goes to speech twice a week. He loves video games jsut as much as Skyler. Eli is very emotional and very loving. He played T-ball this past summer and soccer this fall. He has a great imagination and his very good with his little sister. After everything I have dealt with  with Skyler I worry about my younger ones.. Everything they say and do I think Skyler was just like that when he was younger. I pray that they are healthly and happy kids.
   Brielle is 2 and mommy's side kick. She is so full of life. Talks so much and Loves to have you read her a book. She looks up to her brothers but will shake her finger at them when they make her mad. She has come a long way from when she was born. Brielle desided to come into this world at 28 1/2 weeks. She weighed 3lbs 4oz. She was in the NICU for 52 days. You couldn't tell looking at her today. She is tall and skinny.
   I met  my husband Carson While working for lerhkinds coca cola 6 and a half years ago. He has adopted The two older boys. He works very hard for his family. I just wish it wasn't so hard for our family and that he didn't have to work so hard. I have had to go back to work just to get by. I work 29 hours a week. I am spred thin between work and the kids. Making sure the house is clean the bills are paid.  Food in the cupboards. I have no time for me let alone time with Carson. All I want for Christmas is a vacation with my hubby, No Kids. So we'll see.
  I have run out of time today but I will write more tommorow. With no internet at home I can only update at my inlaws between dropping Eli off and School and my afternoon shift.