Needing to slow down.

   I have been so busy the past couple of months that I have little time for rest or sleep. It has finaly hit me and I can't take much more. My Job is stressful right now and with the stress that Taylor and Skyler are adding its hard to function.
   My Job is stressful because its the holiday season and its my busy season. From Nov to May there is no rest at work. The other thing is that the weekend person Quit. So they hired soemone and She quit after a month. Then I had to work weekends for a while. They couldn't seem to find anyone who would stay. They have someone now. I hope she stays on for a while.
   Skyler is having really bad emotional outburts. He's been crying alot. i don't know what to do. he just drains the energy I have because he is always talking, or he has to be talked to a hundred times. I can't give him a list of things to do. i have to give him one thing make sure he understands it and then wait till he's done. Sometimes its faster if I just do it.
   Taylor is going to start going to therapy. He has always been a handful. He has bad anger outburts. He tries hard to be good and do what is right. but it only last for a week before he's causing problems. Hopefully we get things worked out with him soon.
   I need a vacation. I need to unwind and get things in order at home. My world is slowly coming undone. I need a couple days to clean and Purge. Then a couple days to just relax and take care of myself. But that will never happen.

Phone call from the school

  On Friday I recived a call from the principal of Skylers school saying that he was sent to see her because he was talking back to his teacher. Not like Skyler at all. She didn't even know him after being in the school for two years. He's never been in trouble. So She let me talk to Skyler who was by then crying.
   Skyler told me he was having problems getting his shoes on and getting organized. His teacher told him to move his desk and he responded.... I'm fine right here. Well that set his teacher off and he sent him to tha office. I guess he has been seeing what I have been seeing and had had enough. With Skyler's ADHD and Aspergers he can be a hand full. He is on medication and it works well for his ADHD but there is no magic pill for Aspergers. He is not good with change and when the teacher said move your desk it sent him into a tailspin.
   So we desided to let him stay in the office till he calmed down and then try to send him back to his class. If he couldn't do that I would pick him up. He was able to stay for the day. Which is good. So we talked that night and asked him what was going on. He's not wanting to get out of bed to go to school. Never been a problem before. He told me that he is having problems with a kid in his class making fun of him and tripping and shoving him. Also some problems with kids on the playground.
   So I called the school this morning and they said they would look into it. Its hard with Skyler because that scoial cues everyone has like teasing out of fun or saying its one thing when it clearly is another Skyler doesn't understand. Its either black or white with him. He is a great kid but has little friends because it is hard for him to fit in with other kids. He doesn't know when they are making fun of him and he thinks they are his friends.
   Skyler will always struggle in life with fitting in but as long as he is happy that is all that matters.

Out of waffels

  Let me start be saying today didn't start out good. Skyler is having alot of meltdowns lately. He's not getting out of bed on time he's running late for the bus. But this morning was the Meltdown of all meltdowns so far.
    He has two ego waffels every morining before school. Taylor got up on time and came out to eat breakfast. He ate two waffels and didn't think anything of it. Well skyler finally came out of his room and opened the bigger frezzer and couldn't find any waffels. Taylor ate the last two in the house. Skyler came unglued. Crying screaming and hidding his face in the sweetshirt he was wearing. I told him to eat at school and the answer to that was no. So I drove him to school stopped and got him a donut at the store and gave the kids their lunch money. I forgot to do that last payday.
    So I get to work and I am just so stressed out that I don't want to be there. I have no energy to deal with work today. But I am still at work and counting the hours till I can go home and go to bed. I did buy Waffels to take home. So hopefully it never happens again